Senior year is coming... but first here's to my beginning.

How time flies. It feels as if only yesterday I was getting ready for my first year of college. I was picking out all the aqua blue stuff that I would be putting in my dorm: bedding, hamper, pillows, storage containers and so much more. I was so excited to start a new chapter of my life, little did I know what would happen in the next few years.

My first year of college was rather rough to say the least. I spent all of my first semester by myself because I was too shy to mingle with the other students (and it didn't help that I was a minority student in a primarily white school) and my roommate and I didn't get along that well. Along with that I was a top student in high school and now I was among other top students and here I was no longer at the top but average, maybe even slightly below. Not having friends and drowning in my basic premed classes (general chemistry and general biology mainly) I was not having a good time at all. If I wasn't in class or studying, I was in my dorm room alone watching Netflix and staring out of my 6th floor dorm window over downtown Milwaukee. I would spend hours crying because I missed home and I missed having people to talk to, yes I am shy but I am a people person and being that alone was one of the worst things I could have experienced. One fateful day I would come back from class and hear Grey's Anatomy playing from the dorm room right next door to me (and anyone who knows me knows I am a die hard Grey's fan). I'm not sure what made me walk into the open door dorm, but I did and I talked to the girl that was watching the episode, her name was Delilah. As we talked her neighbor came in (Katelyn) and we all bonded over Grey's, this one experience would be the beginning of a lot changing for me, because I no longer hated school and wished to transfer back home. Delilah, Katelyn, Monica (Delilah's roommate) and I all got closer in that month or so left in the first semester, staying up till 1am playing Uno or jamming to throwback pop music. However, when second semester started we were now down to 3, Delilah had dropped out for the semester due to personal reasons and would never come back (though we thought she would our sophomore year). Monica, Katelyn and I all remained great friends and we would stay that way all throughout sophomore year. 

In my sophomore year I made a big decision to go through sorority recruitment in my second semester. I had always wanted to join one, but wasn't able to do it my freshman year due to always working so I saw this as a chance and went for it. I would eventually find my home within Kappa Delta. What I found hilarious and possibly even fate was that one of my recruitment leaders was actually a KD (though while I was going through the process I obviously didn't know). Our Bid day theme was under the sea, so tons of mermaid stuff and someone dressed as a shark. You could say I felt like a fish out of water because I was in a house full of SO MANY girls and they were all going to be my newfound sisters. We had this new bond, but they were still strangers. In that one day my instagram account grew by about 100 people, it was insane! I would participate in many KD events and meet so many new people, but I would become closer to only a handful, but I would doubt belonging there frequently throughout my sophomore year and first semester of junior year (more on that in my next post). 

These are only a tidbit of my first two years at Marquette University, but as this account goes on many more stories will be shared. This account is about my life and in a sense a diary that I am willing to share with the world. I hope those that read this now and for years to come will understand that this is my story and opinions and no one else's and I will not apologize for anything, unless I am in the wrong (proven by actual facts). The story of my junior year and the summer before my senior year will be a separate post because I have to expand on so much more and this post will become a memoir if I try to go in depth now, so I hope you keep reading and subscribe to stay up to date on new posts.